sometimes distance doesn’t stay in your head.... it starts living in your body too.
 
this song came from that kind of anxiety. being far from someone, overthinking small things, waking up too early, feeling everything too intensely.... until the anxiety starts feeling almost physical.
 
i wanted to describe it like a creature slowly taking pieces of me. first my heart, then my identity, my body, my dreams.... even the place where i lived. the more i worried about the relationship and the distance, the bigger that creature became.
 
that is why the song gets darker than the ones before it. after trying so hard to enjoy the present in "Only This Week", the absence comes back.... and this time the body feels it too.
 
released on february 11, 2021, "Obnoxious Body" became the fourth song of the "2018, phil" audiovisual story.
 
songwriting by CANTIBEALL®
produced and mixed by CANTIBEALL®
mastered by CANTIBEALL®
 
4. Obnoxious Body
 
The anxiety I feel
Because you're too far
Makes me wake up at five
And never live up to the hype
 
The anxiety I feel
About simple things
Spread in all the stuff that you've touched
Makes my anguish inside grow too much
 
The anxiety I feel
Is using its long sharp claws
Squeezing my heart to be chained
My delusion in blood will be drained
 
The anxiety I feel
Is eating me alive
And if I die, don't give me tears
Just whisper your secrets in my ears
 
The anxiety ate my name
It ate my identity
It also gobbled all my pounds
Up
 
Swallowed the province I live
The anxiety drank from my eyes
My tears and my sparse dreams
It also choked on my
My soul
That was always so hard
 
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