sometimes something that felt warm and alive can suddenly become unreachable.... almost overnight.
there was a goodbye, then silence, and all that remained were questions i could no longer ask. when there is no real explanation, your mind starts creating its own.... fear, timing, healing, distance, maybe something hidden behind a shield.
the title basically means "casual, almost indifferent revelations". "offhand" can describe something said casually, without much preparation or apparent concern, and "reveals" is used here as a noun.... something enormous was communicated in a way that felt almost offhand: he was leaving, what we had would not continue, and there might not be another conversation after that.
but that is exactly why the chorus keeps asking "reveal to me". i didn’t want the offhand reveals.... i wanted the real reveal. the explanation underneath the goodbye. what happened? what changed? what was behind the shield? the song keeps reaching for a truth that the ending itself never really gave me.
there is still tenderness in it though. instead of turning everything into anger, it ends by giving time and space.... accepting that sometimes someone leaves before you understand why, and you are left trying to separate what their actions revealed from the explanation you never received.
released on april 5, 2021, "Offhand Reveals" became the sixth song of the "2018, phil" audiovisual story.
songwriting by CANTIBEALL®
produced and mixed by CANTIBEALL®
mastered by CANTIBEALL®
6. Offhand Reveals
I wonder if our story is done
Our story is done
If it's rust you tell me
What made you run?
I wonder if our story is dust
It became dust
Are you gone because of
Your wanderlust
I gave you all my passion
All of my lust you got then
How come didn't I get protection?
Reveal to me
Have you healed?
Reveal to me
Why this shield?
Reveal to me
How do I save our passion?
I know your fear blinded your
Your affection
Cuz I've been giving you
My devotion
There is so much to say now
And how come you disappeared?
Remember I've still got emotions
Reveal to me
Have you healed?
Reveal to me
Why this shield?
Reveal to me
How do I save our passion?
Reveal to me
Have you healed?
Reveal to me
Why this shield?
Reveal to me
How do I save our passion?
Reveal to me
Will the time
And space that I
I gave you
Reveal to me
Will it all save our passion?
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