there is a point where waiting for someone starts becoming a relationship of its own.
i still cared about phil, still wanted to support him, still wanted to believe that maybe he just needed more time.... but there is something exhausting about loving someone who is not ready to fully meet you where you are.
the song lives in that space between hope and reality. i’m imagining a fairytale, waiting by the bay, trying to stay beside him even through the silence.... while also beginning to understand that i might be waiting for something that will never happen.
and that is why the waiting feels ominous. it is not only romantic anymore. there is already this quiet feeling that maybe i know how the story is going to end, even if i’m not ready to admit it yet.
released on march 13, 2021, "Ominous Waiting Game" became the fifth song of the "2018, phil" audiovisual story.
songwriting by CANTIBEALL®
produced and mixed by CANTIBEALL®
mastered by CANTIBEALL®
5. Ominous Waiting Game
I'm sure you'll never see me
As the bottom of your dreams
I'm sure I won't be lucky
To wake you up with my bliss
Everyday I'm living in a fairytale
I'm waiting by the bay so we can sail
But I will still take care of you
Helping you find yourself is priceless
But I will still calmly await
Always beside you even with your silence
But I will still support your chase
Until you feel our story is
Timeless
I'll still await
I'm sure you'll never see me
As the angel that will rescue you
I'm sure I won't make you believe:
Give me a chance and you won't be blue
Every time I see your scared eyes you're avoiding
You're not ready to know me, see me inside
But I will still take care of you
Helping you find yourself is priceless
But I will still calmly await
Always beside you even with your silence
But I will still support your chase
Until you feel our story is
Timeless
I'll still await
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